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    刚从清水河回来，去给他们监考了。 每次回去都会有很多感想，总爱去回忆自己在那里呆过的两年。似乎没有什么大事，就是那样的懵懂的两年，大一大二都不曾认真去想过自己以后会怎样？我是否有预料到现在自己会过着这样的生活。
    我不讨厌科研，可是我真的不爱它，我不想以后生活在科研所里，每天搞着科学研究。总觉得那样的话好憋屈。
    我讨厌自己，讨厌自己的diffidence，讨厌自己不懂计划，不懂预见。
    有时候羡慕别人的美貌，有时候羡慕别人的身材，我总是看不见自己的好，关键是，我还有吗？
    渐渐地，也开始去反驳自己的那些习惯，人，是需要控制的。控制自己的体重，控制的脾气，控制自己的欲望。  Now I totally understand what control means and I really need it.

recently

     I have been hacking the GFW for nearly two months with the help of my old friends.He said that he has bought a service station and can't use that up.some other friends are also using his account,and that made me released. He is really so good at these stuff.(and what is funnest is that their principal is the one who created this GFW. when I asked about how could he do this without worrying that this may offend their principal,he said that we are not doing sth that's illegal,haha funny. there are so many other ways to hack this firewall with some software. but not safe yeah ) I still remember how excited I got the first time I signed in my facebook and twitter account. I've found out that I always want and need something new.  There is not much good friends on facebook,i do not know what to post and what to comment.But I was so curious that i  visited that a lot cause i like to know what their life are like.After hanging on that website a lot ,the conclusion that I draw is that everybody is of no difference. We are the same.And that is what I believe.   We should be proud of who we are and just be ourselves.
      I will go to the new campus tomorrow to supervise students in my class doing exercise on CET4. We have to get up early to catch the morning bus. Teach on every Sunday afternoon.
     Junior year is coming to an end very soon. We have to make a decision about our future,studying abroad? studying further in another university for a master's degree? work? there are plenty of chances and opportunities for us.it is really vital for us to find out our interests. so come on my baby. I know you will definitely have a bright future if you set your mind to.